My Husband Made Me A Geek...

Before I meet my husband, Chris, I had never seen star wars, I had seen the first few Marvel movies but wasn't "Deep" into knowing about the comics or their back stories or how they are all linked together.

Well other that change....

My husband now has me hooked on all kinds of geeky things... Star wars, Marvel, Pokemon.
It still amazes me to this day. But I actually surprisingly enjoy it. It's something that we both love and do together. We love our movies and tv shows so it's nice that we both get into it together.
But I will never get into the scary horror type movies, nope no way his on his own, I draw the line there!

So with saying that I am HUGELY excited about the new teaser trailer for Thor: Ragnarok. And plus fellow Australia Chris Hemsworth is hot, you can't deny that one!

So enjoy...

P.s. my favourite line is from Thor: "YES..... We know each other, his a friend from work!"

Tough Day...

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There are days when you wish for the answer that your looking for,
But then once you hear the news, you then wonder, were you really prepared in the first place to hear the truth?

Sure it gives you reasons, but what comes next, the unknown that is the scary bit.
You breathe a big sign of relief, finally, you have something to fight, something to blame.

But then in the quiet of the night, you start to doubt and start to wonder, are you strong enough? are you brave enough? Do you have the strength to do this?

You are already tired, at the end of your rope after fighting something that you thought that you starting to think that you could never win against.

You have so many hopes wrapped up in this new news, hoping that the fight is coming to an end that you can have a proper rest.

I want to know what it feels like to wake up in the morning feeling refresh from you 8 hours sleep, to have a week where you don't have a massive headache or a migraine restricting you to bed a day or two.
I want to have my memory back, rather than forget where I put the paperwork or packaging just 5 mins ago, having to write notes about all appointment and what to ask or else you'll forget.

I know what it's like to have energy each and every day, not just for one day than pay for it the next day with exhaustion and headaches.

And to finally feel like a new & normal person again.

Connections....

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Throughout my life, I have alway thought to myself that if someone didn't reply to my message or phone call that I had done something wrong.
I was alway the person putting 150% in a relationship, whether that being a friendship or a relationship with a sibling.
I always thought that the rest it was not a two-way fair relationship was because I didn't deserve it, that I wasn't good enough.

Over the last few months, years I have slowly learned that I deserve friendships & relationship where putting put in equal effort. I deserve to feel wanted, not to feel like crap and only contacted when someone wants something from me.

It took me way too long to realise that you shouldn't stay friends with people who never ask how you're doing.

I want people in my life that care about me, that care enough to reach out to me when I am struggling. Friends may go weeks or months or years without talking to each other but making the effort to each other when the opportunity come up to see them or to message them or to call that makes a big impact. Rather than silence.

Now I want to surround myself with people that care about me. People that I care about. People that want to know the real me. People that take time for me. 

Surround yourself with people that love you.

Song of the Week....

This week I picked a song that is on one of my Spotify playlists when I just need to kinda of zone out. When I just need to accept the hard time that I am going through.
But that it's a moment in my life, it may seem like a long moment, but I can survive it, I can get through it I just need to be strong, to push through it.
At the moment, yes I have more bad days than good, but that will slowly change to being more good than bad.
Oh, I do LOVE Delta's new album. So strong and powerful.

My favourite lyrics from the song....

How did it all get so heavy
I used to stand up so tall
There's only so much I can carry
Before I fall
And they tell me "girl you're so lucky"
"You've got the world in your hands"
But you know the world gets so heavy
You don't understand
And that's heavy

So I hope you enjoy this week's song.

Project Life 2017

"We take photos as a return ticket to moments otherwise gone."

This is my second year doing Project life, last year I complete a full year doing 6x8 layout albums in a monthly format.
This year I decided that I needed more room to be able to tell more stories, to be able to record our lives in more details. To remember no only the big things in life but also the small funny or hard moments.

I have loved being able to look back out our lives and remember simple things that we may have done one day or remember how cute Chris looked fallen asleep on the couch- I tend to take a few photos of him fallen asleep on the couch after work, he just looks so cute lol.

So let me share my first layout for the year.

Week 1: 1st-8th Jan 2017

PART 1:

We celebrated the new year with my brother in law and his wife, and my father in law. It was a nice relaxing night. At midnight we cheered to the new year and played with sparklers.

This week was a somewhat quiet week, I was still pretty sick, so there was a lot of Dr's appointments and resting. in all honest it was a very hard week being sick, I was able to finally find out, after a week and a half why I was so sick. Ended up being withdrawal symptoms from a medication change that they had done in December, my old medication as I Found out has some nasty withdraws.

PART 2:

On one of my good days, we were able to head down the coast to meet up with my sister and the rest of the Kokoda challenge team and their families for a post training BBQ. It was really good to catch up with Steph again- she did the challenge last year with Cass. And it was also good to be able to meet the two new team member husband and wife, Allen and Jenny. 

They are all really awesome nice people and great to be able to hang out and have a nice relaxing afternoon with them.

The week we also went to see Star Wars: Rouge One with John, Tim and Crystal. Chris & I didn't tell John that I had actually seen it already down in Hobart, but I was more than happy to see the movie again. I still can't believe that my husband has gotten me into Star Wars. Seeing that before we started dating I had never seen a since movie! Now well I even enjoy watching the cartoon series Rebels.

This week we also took down the Christmas decorations, which I hated. December was a very hard month for me I felt like it didn't really get to enjoy the month and do the normally Christmas things that I like to do like baking etc. But they had to come down, I didn't want to be the crazy couple in the apartment complex with their Christmas tree still up.

Also as you can also tell. Chris is excited about the next Star wars... he has already started to send me the countdowns!

So each week I like to include the same format of week title card, the "this week" card where I give a run down of things that also happened that week that I may not have photos for. And I also like to include the Gratitude card, making sure that each week I focus on the things that I am grateful for. with all the negative things happening with my health I need to focus on the positives, as hard as that can be this gives the a good reason to really focus.

I will be sharing Week 2 with you soon :)

March Goals

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This month I want to work on me, really focus on me and no one else, and not worry about what other people are thinking or what is going to happen in the future.

I am still fighting the dark cloud of depression and anxiety. And nothing that people were saying to me seemed to get through the fog of my head. But over the last few days, I have somewhat decided to try thinking that I think may help me, not keep trying things that other tell me to do that I just don't response, that I just seem to shut down even more.

It's a continuous fight. every day, every hour, every second for me at the moment. My mood, my thoughts can change so quickly, with no reason. My body also has a huge physical effect on my, my anxiety takes a lot of form through physical symptoms, and none of them is nice at all I can assure you of that. And it also takes a lot of out me making each day even harder.

This month there are certain goals that I want to aim to achieve. Starting simple, within all these goals are small baby steps set out, cause if I don't do that then I just get to overwhelmed and loose confident that I can do it.

So enough blubbering let's get down to the list....

March Goals...

1. Create a Morning routine:
• Have it broken down to each little thing
• Laminate it and have it next to my bed and in the bathroom
2. Create a Evening routine:
• Have it broken down to each little thing.
• Lamitate it and have it next to my bed and in the bathroom
3. Create a Self-Care list
• Do one thing from this list every day.
4. Stick to the Cheapskates Club $300 per month grocery bill challenge.
• Create inventories-Pantry, fridge & freezers
• Expand my recipe book
• Create a meal plan for the month
• Create a shopping list
5. Try to blog at the very list once this month! Hopefully more
6. Project life
• Keep up to date with my notebook & gratitudes
• Work on completing 2016 project life
• Keep up to date with 2017 weekly spread
• Film a layout process video
7. Read one book, and complete it!
8. Keep up with the house work
• Put together cleaning a schedule 
• This includes watering the herbs!! Don't kill them!
9. Continue to cook something each week, even if it is something small
10. Get outside more even if it's just for ten minutes.

So there you have it, these are my goals for the month of March, my intentions. But the main one, one that I have not listed there is to focus on me, to put me first make myself a priority. 

But the important thing is that at the end of the month if I have only been able to achieve one thing off this list or even just half of one, that is still an achievement in my book from where I am currently sitting, any progress is better than none.

2016 Mini Reflection...

Over the last few days, I started to reflect on where my life has lead me and Chris over the past 12 months. It has certainly been a roller coaster for us both. We have had both really good and bad times throughout the year, but it has made us grow stronger, it has made our marriage, our friendship a lot stronger.

2017, I really want to focus on myself and also people around me. One of those things that I would really like to do is to reconnect with people in my life, to make real connections with people and to put the effect into keeping those relationships going.

I have a bad habit of pushing people away when my anxiety gets really bad, and by doing that a lot of my friendships break down.

So in 2017 I am going to work on making wholesome real meaningful connections that are two ways street. I need to learn to try in people and show then that I try them by talking to them, sharing my life with them and in return allowing them to then open up to me.

Over the next couple of days, I am going to be sharing with you my 2017 goals & intentions. 2017 is going to be a good year, it will take a lot of work to make it the year I want, but I am determined!!

Hello... Long Time...

Ok, time to give you all a run down to what is happening with this blog, I know over the past two years I have been swapping and changing.... BUT I am back!

I have decided that I am going to keep my original blog. I have decided this for a number of reasons, but when I first started to want to get back into blogging so much had changed and I wanted a fresh start. But I just couldn't get into the new blog, and I keep thinking back to my good old original blog, and I just didn't want to give it up. It has so many memories that I don't want to forget any of it, the good or bad all the posts are a part of who I am.

As you may have read from my last big long blog post over the last two year I have been struggling to deal with my anxiety and depression especially the last two nearly three months, which lead me, my husband and Doctor's to decide that the best things for me was to admit me to hospital for a medication change. I was discharged on the 15th December and the next day we flew out to Tasmania for Christmas with my parents.

Things are still going on with regarding to my anxiety and depression and there will be another medication change which again we will do in hospital due to medical symptoms that I have had to deal with over the last week and a half- totally wasn't expecting the withdrawals from my old medication and it has hit me hard!

But things are slowly getting better and will continue to, I will not let it get the best of me.

So I have decided to start blogging again it's an outlet for me to express myself, and no it will not be just about the hard time that I am going through I promise.

So end of the post... I'm back! I do want to do a blog makeover and update, which will happen at some point soon, need to get around to that but hey let's focus on regular posting.

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Moving Life Around...

Over the past week we have moved into a new apartment.

And we have fallen head over heels with this place!

It is super close to Chris's work, 

And with me now working from home it is making life simple and easy.

It is awesome to have our own space back again.

Over the past 12 months we have been living with Chris's mother.

While it was a huge blessing with the events that occurred over the past year,

It has been hard not having our own place.

Not being able to unpack all our belongings,

And a few other challenges along the way.

But that is now a thing of the past and we now get to enjoy our own place again.

We got the keys a week before we moved the large furniture.

Which was awesome because we were able to move car loads into the apartment each day.

The first thing that we did was to move and unpack all the kitchen items.

Because they had been packed up for the last 12 months, 

We wanted to go through everything, throw away things we no longer wanted/needed,

Plus we then washed and deep cleaned every since thing.

Then we went ahead and organised the kitchen the way that we wanted to.

The reason that I loved that we did that first,

Was because we knew unpacking things would take a while, 

Mainly due to the fact that we are buying new furniture, but will be a few weeks til we get them.

So we are currently living in a house of boxes, 

But we are still able to function

Our kitchen is fully functioning,

Our clothes are unpacked,

Our bathroom was also already set up before moving in,

And Chris set up the TV and lounge the day we moved it.

The apartment is a work in progress,

But we love it and can't wait to see it all completed once we have fully unpacked!

Currently In February...

Reading... 'See Me' by Nicholas Sparks, I have been trying to get back into the groove of reading for the past few weeks, I have fallen into a rut. I really want to get back into reading, I miss it.
Playing... Lately I have been loving playing cards games on my phone, my two top games- Solitaire & Spider. I find it relaxing to just chill out and play the games and not think, just zone out.
Watching... Grey's Anatomy, going back to the beginning and re-watching all the episodes, oh how I love Grey's!
Trying... Blogging... trying to get back into the groove, it gets the thoughts out of my head, it always me to express what I am loving at that moment. I will get back to blogging!
Cooking... New Thermomix recipes, trying new things and using my Thermomix more.
Eating... Chicken Tinga.... AMAZING!!!
Drinking... Mint Hot Chocolate, wishing for colder months!
Calling... My parents, I take the time when I am driving to call them, say hi & catch up with them.
Texting... My sisters, Cass & Jaci, organising a craft night with them for next week, trying to get them into Project Life!
Pinning... Project life ideas, trying to get into it and to get inspiration.
Tweeting... Not really tweeting any more, but I did use it to suss out the drama between Kanya West & Taylor Swift!
Going... Earlier this month my best friend and me when for a road trip to the beach down the coast. It was a gorgeous day, clear blue skies, nice warm day, good food, great conversation. Awesome day, nice relaxing.
Loving... PicTapGo app, it is a awesome app to be able to edit photos, I am so glad that I discovered the recommendation from Becky Higgins blog.
Discovering... On the hunt for new blogs to read, still hunting. Let me know if you have favourite blogs.
Thinking... Oh this is not a easy one, picking one thought, way too many thoughts going through my head.
Feeling... Sore, at the moment my jaw is hurting, have to go and have a scan of my jaw this week, plus I have a tooth to fix.
Hoping (for)... A phone call regarding a job I applied for.
Listening (to)... Today's Top Hits, playlist on Spotify.
Celebrating... This week Kat celebrated 2 years living in Brisbane.
Smelling... Night Jasmine... I purchased a new perfume this month from the Body Shop, absolutely love it!
Ordering...  New project life kit, 'Currently" oh my gosh I love the look of that kit! I couldn't find it anywhere in Spotlight stores in Brisbane, so I ordered it online, it should be here this week, super excited to play with it.
Thanking...  Chris, for being a amazing husband, patient, kind, loving, understanding. He is the best person that I have ever met, and I am so blessed to have him in my life.
Considering... The future. What plans I want to make for both me and us, what the future may hold for us, what I want to achieve.
Starting... Project life album, I am determined to get into the groove of my 2016 album.
Finishing... My 2015 December daily album, finish off the journaling, everything else if finished except for a few piece of journaling and a few numbers need to be added to a couple of pages.

How has your month been?

Heart of the Kitchen

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A gathering place for friends and family. 

A place where memories are homemade & seasoned with love.

When Chris and I got married we brought a wedding present to ourselves. We brought a Thermomix!!

Yes they are a expensive kitchen appliance, but it is AMAZING!!! It does so many awesome things, it is extremely well made, and it saves the space in the kitchen, it savings having to buy so many other appliances.

It give me the confidence to make things that in the past I would of never have dreamed of making. The machine is simple and easy to use, there are amazing cookbooks out there by awesome chefs, healthy and creative meals. 

This little machine has also helped get my husband into the kitchen and cooking meals, teaching him how to cook, and giving him confidence that he can also do it too!

I have a huge list of recipes that I want to make, and of course Pinterest is helping with making that list longer.

Here are a few of the things that I have made some far in the past 15 months that I have had the Thermomix...

-Chorizo, mushroom & gorgonzola cheese risotto

-Vegetable stock

-Butter Chicken

-Sausage Rolls

-Cinnamon Rolls

-Lindt Mint Chocolate mousse, topped with Malteser's.

-Almond Milk

-Chicken Tinga (two photos)

-Dip- almond, sundried tomato, olives

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They have all been amazing and super delicious! And they taste fresh, that may sound weird, but I they are awesome! 

Having a Thermomix has brought back creativity back into my cooking, it has got me cooking things that I have never had the guts to cook before.

Thanks to the Thermomix I am currently loving avocados, black beans and olives. Delicious.

I even backed bread for the first time!!! I wish that I took more photos of the things that I have made.

My goal this year is to use the Thermomix more often and to try new recipes. I want to cook at least 52 new recipes this year, one each week!

Fight Time...

"Some don't realises that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal."

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Living life with anxiety, some days it absolutely sucks.
Each day is a fight, Me vs. Me...

There are days where I don't want to get out of bed and face the world, where I just wanted to hide under the covers.

There are days where I feel like there is a huge weight on my chest making breathing feel impossible.

There are days where the panic takes control and the panic attacks set in.

There are days when the smallest things will make me cry.

Some days the anxiety slow builds up, other days it hits me like a fast moving truck.

There are nights where I lay awake for hours on end, into the early hours of the morning, not being about to stop the thoughts that are racing through my mind.

The worries that race through my head, over thinking past actions, words that were once send, past memories, and the future.

For someone to talk about what it is like to have anxiety, panic attacks and/or depression is extremely hard, I love this video at the bottom of this post by Meghan Rienks, she has put together a video explain anxiety and has done a awesome job at explaining what it feels like.

For me, I have the evil three- Anxiety, Panic Attacks and Depression. Anxiety being the worst out of all three. They are the worst feelings in the world.

Each day is a battle, a battle to look forward to the day ahead of me, to not let the little things get to me. On the outside I may look fine or normal... but inside it is a massive fight, with myself.

But I am improving, I am learning how to cope, how to live with them, and how to not let them define me.

I started blogging again because I want to be able to us this platform as a source of expression for me, from things that I am thinking down to the things that I am loving on Pinterest.

If you have anxiety or depression, or panic attacks, know this... you are not alone, there are people around you that care about you, there are people around you that understand what you are going through, and most importantly you are stronger than you think.

Craftiness

Over the past few months I have had a craving to be crafty. Thanks to the awesome help from my Mum for showing me how to make a quilt.

I have now fully made 1 quilt and I have a second one half made. They are both so cute!

I absolutely love the Winnie The Pooh quilt, it is going to look super cute once it is completed! 

I have taken a bit of a break on the quilt for the past month, mainly cause its the middle of summer here at the moment, so it is a tad bit too hot to be working on it at the moment, even with the air con on!

I really want the next quilt to be a Marvel themed one, I just have to hunt for some cute fabric, a Panel and a backing fabric, so the hunt is on.

One day when we have kids these quilts will look even better with a little baby chillin' out on top of it!

Lounge Room Picnic Date Night

The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.

I love our simple date nights when were too tired to go out or to cook, so instead we drop into the supermarket on the way home grab a simple light dinner, then to head home, camp out on the lounge room floor and chat while we enjoy some yummy food. Then we curl up and watch a movie together.

It's those small personal moments that I love, relaxing in the peace and quiet of our home, enjoying each other's company. On this particular evening, we got to listen to the rain pouring outside along with thunder and lightening, oh how I do love summer night storms.

Clear Blue Skies & Rolling Green Hills

Huon Valley

This is the view that I grew up with, Huon valley, when I was young I got to enjoy playing in the fields of my grandparents farm. In October 2015 I was able to take my husband to Tasmania and show him where my family were from, he got to listen to stories from my Mum & Nana.

I loved listening to their stories, remembering memories from my childhood that had long been forgotten, and learning new things that I never knew about my Mum's childhood, and seeing sites that I love. We had a gorgeous day, the weather was perfect! Clear blue sky, bight warm day. Love it!

These two pictures capture so much of what I love about Tasmania, it is my favourite part in Australia, and I am so glad that I was born and raised there. I love visiting and seeing the sights and discovering new places.

Chris and myself are planning a 2 week trip to Tasmania late December this year, we are going to hire a camper van and spend the 2 weeks traveling around, showing Chris the state that I love, enjoying time together.

It is my favourite time to head down to Tasmania for a number of reason, the main one being the fruit that is in season down there.... fresh raspberries and cherries... of my goodness they are amazing down there! Fresh from the orchards, delicious!!

Sleeping Beauty, Huon Valley

Life Around Here...

Life lately in photos...

They say that a picture is worth a thousand words...

Enjoy.

Dream!

My trainer sent me a awesome video last night, and today I have watched it about 6 times, and I am sure that I will watch it more times to come.

Take 6 and a 1/2 mins to watch this video, it is well worth it!

Attitude of Gratitude...

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Life is pretty darn awesome when we take the time to stop and really appreciate it.

And that is one thing that I want to do more...

Stop

Look around

Take things in

Appreciate the little things in life.

• Friends... They know how to brighten my day. I have been blessed with amazing friends in my life that put the effort into our friendship just as much as I do, and that I have really come to recognise and appreciate over the past year. I have really learnt who my true friends are and who honestly care for me.
• My Parents... Over the past 5 year I have become closer to my parents, I have taken the time to get to know them better, to get to know them as people as well as my parents. I have learnt so much from them, from them as people and as a couple. I am so grateful for their support and love. I miss them each day, and hate living for far away from them.
• Work... I love the company that I work for. I know many people can't say that about their job, but I am so glad that I am someone that can. They are a awesome company to work for, and I am so grateful that I was able to transfer to Brisbane and to be able to stay up here.
• My Personal Trainer- Beau... Wow, so I met Beau on the 2nd of April this year, we met through a silly mistake of mine, but he has been a amazing blessing on my life in more ways than one. He has not only helped me with my fitness, but has become my friend, has helped me with my injuries, has helped me become a better happier person. Oh there is just so much to say on this topic, but I will leave that for another post.
• Brisbane... It is a gorgeous state, I love the weather and the atmosphere that is here in Brisbane especially come summer time! Oh how I love this place!
• Sisters... I am grateful for my sister Jaci and Cass, for the examples that they are to me, for the love that they show me.
• Nature... Ok this may sound weird but I am grateful for the world we live in. Have you stopped and looked at the amazing things we have on this planet! I mean it's pretty darn awesome!
• The Gospel... I am so grateful for the church in my life, I am proud to be a Mormon. Love the peace that I brings my life.

That's my list for now, 

Stay tuned for more another day.

But in the mean time...

What are you grateful for?

Start Your Day Off On A Positive...

So I'm sure most of you have already seen this video, I have a couple of times, but after a conversation that I had tonight with a friend about positive thinking, I automatically thought of this video.
I mean what better way to start off the day then focusing on the positive things in your life, and turning things into positives, even if they were so crash hot the day before.

I love that this girl is so passionate about it, that she pretty much loves her whole life.
I think this is how we should be with out lives. I think as adults we tend to forget that this is our life and we should learn to be happy with it, change things that we are not happy with but more importantly we need to learn how to fall in love with our lives and ourselves.

What would you say in your morning affirmation?