Tuesday, February 28, 2017



Throughout my life, I have alway thought to myself that if someone didn't reply to my message or phone call that I had done something wrong.
I was alway the person putting 150% in a relationship, whether that being a friendship or a relationship with a sibling.
I always thought that the rest it was not a two-way fair relationship was because I didn't deserve it, that I wasn't good enough.

Over the last few months, years I have slowly learned that I deserve friendships & relationship where putting put in equal effort. I deserve to feel wanted, not to feel like crap and only contacted when someone wants something from me.

It took me way too long to realise that you shouldn't stay friends with people who never ask how you're doing.

I want people in my life that care about me, that care enough to reach out to me when I am struggling. Friends may go weeks or months or years without talking to each other but making the effort to each other when the opportunity come up to see them or to message them or to call that makes a big impact. Rather than silence.

Now I want to surround myself with people that care about me. People that I care about. People that want to know the real me. People that take time for me. 
Surround yourself with people that love you.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Song of the Week....

This week I picked a song that is on one of my Spotify playlists when I just need to kinda of zone out. When I just need to accept the hard time that I am going through.
But that it's a moment in my life, it may seem like a long moment, but I can survive it, I can get through it I just need to be strong, to push through it.
At the moment, yes I have more bad days than good, but that will slowly change to being more good than bad.
Oh, I do LOVE Delta's new album. So strong and powerful.

My favourite lyrics from the song....
How did it all get so heavy
I used to stand up so tall
There's only so much I can carry
Before I fall
And they tell me "girl you're so lucky"
"You've got the world in your hands"
But you know the world gets so heavy
You don't understand
And that's heavy

So I hope you enjoy this week's song.

Project Life 2017

"We take photos as a return ticket to moments otherwise gone."

This is my second year doing Project life, last year I complete a full year doing 6x8 layout albums in a monthly format.
This year I decided that I needed more room to be able to tell more stories, to be able to record our lives in more details. To remember no only the big things in life but also the small funny or hard moments.

I have loved being able to look back out our lives and remember simple things that we may have done one day or remember how cute Chris looked fallen asleep on the couch- I tend to take a few photos of him fallen asleep on the couch after work, he just looks so cute lol.

So let me share my first layout for the year.

Week 1: 1st-8th Jan 2017


We celebrated the new year with my brother in law and his wife, and my father in law. It was a nice relaxing night. At midnight we cheered to the new year and played with sparklers.

This week was a somewhat quiet week, I was still pretty sick, so there was a lot of Dr's appointments and resting. in all honest it was a very hard week being sick, I was able to finally find out, after a week and a half why I was so sick. Ended up being withdrawal symptoms from a medication change that they had done in December, my old medication as I Found out has some nasty withdraws.


On one of my good days, we were able to head down the coast to meet up with my sister and the rest of the Kokoda challenge team and their families for a post training BBQ. It was really good to catch up with Steph again- she did the challenge last year with Cass. And it was also good to be able to meet the two new team member husband and wife, Allen and Jenny. 
They are all really awesome nice people and great to be able to hang out and have a nice relaxing afternoon with them.

The week we also went to see Star Wars: Rouge One with John, Tim and Crystal. Chris & I didn't tell John that I had actually seen it already down in Hobart, but I was more than happy to see the movie again. I still can't believe that my husband has gotten me into Star Wars. Seeing that before we started dating I had never seen a since movie! Now well I even enjoy watching the cartoon series Rebels.

This week we also took down the Christmas decorations, which I hated. December was a very hard month for me I felt like it didn't really get to enjoy the month and do the normally Christmas things that I like to do like baking etc. But they had to come down, I didn't want to be the crazy couple in the apartment complex with their Christmas tree still up.

Also as you can also tell. Chris is excited about the next Star wars... he has already started to send me the countdowns!

So each week I like to include the same format of week title card, the "this week" card where I give a run down of things that also happened that week that I may not have photos for. And I also like to include the Gratitude card, making sure that each week I focus on the things that I am grateful for. with all the negative things happening with my health I need to focus on the positives, as hard as that can be this gives the a good reason to really focus.

I will be sharing Week 2 with you soon :)

Saturday, February 25, 2017

March Goals


This month I want to work on me, really focus on me and no one else, and not worry about what other people are thinking or what is going to happen in the future.

I am still fighting the dark cloud of depression and anxiety. And nothing that people were saying to me seemed to get through the fog of my head. But over the last few days, I have somewhat decided to try thinking that I think may help me, not keep trying things that other tell me to do that I just don't response, that I just seem to shut down even more.

It's a continuous fight. every day, every hour, every second for me at the moment. My mood, my thoughts can change so quickly, with no reason. My body also has a huge physical effect on my, my anxiety takes a lot of form through physical symptoms, and none of them is nice at all I can assure you of that. And it also takes a lot of out me making each day even harder.

This month there are certain goals that I want to aim to achieve. Starting simple, within all these goals are small baby steps set out, cause if I don't do that then I just get to overwhelmed and loose confident that I can do it.

So enough blubbering let's get down to the list....

March Goals...

  1. Create a Morning routine:
    • Have it broken down to each little thing
    • Laminate it and have it next to my bed and in the bathroom
  2. Create a Evening routine:
    • Have it broken down to each little thing.
    • Lamitate it and have it next to my bed and in the bathroom
  3. Create a Self-Care list
    • Do one thing from this list every day.
  4. Stick to the Cheapskates Club $300 per month grocery bill challenge.
    • Create inventories-Pantry, fridge & freezers
    • Expand my recipe book
    • Create a meal plan for the month
    • Create a shopping list
  5. Try to blog at the very list once this month! Hopefully more
  6. Project life
    • Keep up to date with my notebook & gratitudes
    • Work on completing 2016 project life
    • Keep up to date with 2017 weekly spread
    • Film a layout process video
  7. Read one book, and complete it!
  8. Keep up with the house work
    • Put together cleaning a schedule 
    • This includes watering the herbs!! Don't kill them!
  9. Continue to cook something each week, even if it is something small
  10. Get outside more even if it's just for ten minutes.

So there you have it, these are my goals for the month of March, my intentions. But the main one, one that I have not listed there is to focus on me, to put me first make myself a priority. 

But the important thing is that at the end of the month if I have only been able to achieve one thing off this list or even just half of one, that is still an achievement in my book from where I am currently sitting, any progress is better than none.